addendum

It’s not that I don’t pick up the hints that peo­ple send out. Rather, I pick up both the actual hints and those stray lit­tle sendings-out that peo­ple give. Either let flood swarm through or shut things out.

I shut out as much as I could when I was pretty young. I opened up enough, later on, to manip­u­late when I chose to do so. Andy is an exam­ple. When faced with how trag­i­cally I used those senses, with him in par­tic­u­lar, I knew bet­ter to close up the walls… and instead became hor­ri­bly inse­cure about it all. I had always had the inse­cu­ri­ties, but it was then that they took such hold. I think.

Either way. That’s a long time. Andy has been a few years now. The pre­vi­ous stages were years before that.

Anyway. Point is. If I’m annoy­ing — either at a par­tic­u­lar time or in gen­eral — at least tell me so. Bluntly. Nicely, hope­fully? but Bluntly. My only option is to err on the side of free­dom, and trust those around me to tell me to shut up or back off. okay?